Surgery is booked. August 10. That's a little later than I had expected but the nurse at the clinic explained it was because of summer holidays. Unfortunate, but it also gives me a chance to enjoy my summer knowing I won't get the call offering treatment this cycle.

It does give me more time to think about that right tube, healing itself, wondering if I've been getting pregnant all along and lefty has been spewing her toxic fluid all over righty's successes. More than once I have been absolutely positive I was pregnant, only to have AF arrive on CD40. I even lactated one month. That's messed up. Now this clarity is making me wonder if I am ok with having righty taken out. But I can't take the risk of an ectopic either. Or IVF not working and wonder if it was because I should have had righty removed. Or have righty taken out and wonder if I would have conceived traditionally if I had just had lefty taken out. This sounds crazy, but I kind of wish righty hadn't looked so good on that ultrasound. If she had just stayed swollen and blocked, I wouldn't even have to think about it.

In the end, my original decision is the best decision for me now. I don't have time to waste anymore. I am going to ask my doctor to check righty first before ripping her out but in the end, both tubes will be removed and on the bright side I will never have to take birth control again. Snort.