Fertilization Report: 4 four cell, 1 five cell and 2 two cell embryos still kicking. The eighth fertilized abnormally (either two sperm infiltrated or the egg was not mature).

Here is why I am not excited. My doctor told me after retrieval that we would definitely go ahead with transfer on Monday. Obviously the concern for OHSS was pretty much blown out of the water when my 29 follicles turned into eight. Now, pardon me for taking his words as gospel, but that is the closest thing to a guarantee anyone at that clinic has been willing to utter. In fact, they make it a point to not give you any hope at any juncture. So for my doctor to tell me we will definitely move ahead with transfer; I clung to that statement when I couldn't sleep Friday night, wondering how my babies were doing. I repeated that statement over and over in my head Saturday night, lying awake feeling like I was going to vomit, imagining my embryos arresting one by one.

I got the call from the embryologist yesterday morning, giving me the details of my transfer. I hung up the phone and went to work to clear up and assign any work for the next week so I could prescribe myself bedrest after transfer. That was when I got the call. "We would like you to come in tomorrow morning for an assessment before going ahead with the transfer."

I told the nurse I have no symptoms. I told her my doctor said we would go ahead with transfer. All to no avail. The other doctor would like me to be assessed. This is the same doctor that decided I should "coast" thus reducing my yield from a potential 29 eggs down to eight.

If this doctor decides to cancel my transfer and proceed with an FET in a couple of months, I will need her guarantee that all my embryos will make it through freeze and thaw and I will get pregnant. I don't think that is too much to ask considering she has the rest of my life in her hands.

Update: The transfer is proceeding. This is a good news/bad news thing because the embryos are fragmenting and are "moderate" in quality. Basically the doctor doesn't think it's going to work so OHSS isn't too much of a concern. I'll show her.