16 weeks today. The terror has subsided and I feel like a normal pregnant person. Everyone at work knows. I avoided the big, awkward announcement because my boss asked if he could tell a few pertinent people for planning purposes when I was at 12 weeks. He told, news spread quickly, problem solved.

I'm not planning on going back to work after my year of maternity leave is up. Mr. M and I have talked about it and we should be fine on his income. Luckily we live in a city where, if I do decide to go back in a couple of years, it shouldn't be too hard to find a job. Especially in my discipline, with my experience. My boss has already asked me for first right of refusal if I do decide to start working again. I think twins and an eight year old will be work enough for me!

Speaking of the eight year old, Ms. O has been acting a little strange lately. She's regressed a bit. Where she has always been very independent she now asks for help. She's outright refused to clean her room for two months straight, just sitting in her room whining each time I asked her to clean up. She has been sassy and argumentative. I was complaining to my friend about it (along the "I don't have the patience for this right now" vein) and she suggested it might have something to do with the impending arrival of the twins. At first I was all "no way, she's so excited!" but then I thought of my own conflicted emotions about all of this.

Although I am so excited, beyond anything I could ever have imagined, I still wonder if we really did the right thing. Mr. M and I could have been home free in ten years with Ms. O out of the house. Cabin in the woods, Airstream Trailer, travelling North and South America on our own; all on hold for another 18 years. Now if I think of those things, after the pain and money and stress to achieve this pregnancy, how could I have expected Ms. O to only be of one mind? Sure she's excited but I have to allow her the opportunity to be conflicted as well.

This realization has increased my patience tenfold and it's already making a difference. I cleaned out her room and told her if she could keep it clean for one month, we would redecorate her room (she wants a "dragonfly" room, whatever that means). It's been one week and so far, so good.

In baby news, I had another ultrasound at 13w, everything looks great. The babies are stacked (like they are in bunk beds). That will probably change as they get bigger but it was cute. Baby A was kicking Baby B in the head. It's funny because on each ultrasound Baby A has been so active and Baby B has been the mellow one. I hope it's somewhat indicative of their personalities, I don't think I could handle two more showboats. They both measure the same, with the same heartbeats.

My next ultrasound is January 29. We are hoping to find out genders at that one. I am getting really impatient. I've been knitting for both boy and girl. I'm planning on a few each of boy themed and girl themed quilts. If I can't use them, I can always give them away as gifts. We definitely know enough people having babies these days!

Mr. M and I are not in agreement as to which room to use as the baby room so nothing has been accomplished on that front. He wants to use the room attached to our bedroom, which is technically a nursery but currently my sewing room. I think it's silly to start them there as we would have to move them in a year to the guest room anyway due to space constraints. Mr. M is planning on finishing the basement before they arrive so I don't see why we need to keep a guest room upstairs when we will have one downstairs. I'm just waiting for this one to work itself out. They'll be in our room for the first few months anyway, no point in worrying about it now.

I finally purchased baby items. It was one hurdle I couldn't get over so I finally went to Se.ars and bought some onesie undershirts and some receiving blankets. I've made a list of necessities I would like to have by March 1. Anything else we'll just buy after they arrive (and all of the gifts have come in!).

That's all for now. No news is good news these days.