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Monday, September 21, 2009

I hate needles. I'm not afraid of bugs (except moths...yuck) or the dark and I wouldn't even classify needles as a fear of mine. They just really creep me out. Shaky, clammy palms kind of creepy. But I did it.

I asked Mr. M to stand there while I administered my first injection. I would get the needle thisclose to my tummy and then panic. It took about ten minutes and one threat to snatch the needle from my hands and stab me himself before I finally took the plunge and stabbed myself. Guess what? It didn't even hurt. Not even a twinge of pain. I have never been so relieved.

Today I had to inject myself during work hours. Luckily it turned out to be a day I had to drive in so at 1:00 I casually sauntered out of the office, went to the parkade and prepared the needle in the front seat of my van. I looked over my shoulder to make sure no one was about to witness what I'm sure would appear to be some closet junkie getting through the day. Then stabbed myself again.

I'm not sure why,but I feel proud of myself for this minor accomplishment. Not only have I reached the point where I can get through the multitude of blood draws I now have to endure without flinching, I am also capable of inserting a metal instrument into my fatty layer and push the plunger without throwing up. I'm already looking forward to tomorrow's injection. Go figure.
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  1. kateSeptember 24, 2009 at 11:05 AM

    Thanks for stopping by to comment on my blog! I think we must be cycling pretty close to one another (I start stims tomorrow). I was needlephobic as a child/teen, and routinely would pass out when a needle entered the room. It was only in my 20s when I finally could find a little routine/ritual to get me through shots and blood draws (breathe in, count to five, breathe out, count to five, repeat until the shot is over...). Anyhow, my first at-home shot was a breeze, but probably only because I had years of freaking out to practice for it, and now, it actually makes me more nervous when my husband gives me the shots! But like you, I was also surprised at how it didn't hurt at all.

    And of COURSE you feel proud! That's a huge deal! Not many people can say that they've given themselves an injection, you know. We usually leave that to the pros, so when we do it ourselves, it's worthy of a cheer. So GO YOU!!! Good job!

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