Bye Bye Tubies

Well, as I expected, before proceeding with IVF I have to have both fallopian tubes removed. The finality of having my tubes removed is a little hard to come to terms with. This annihilates any chance of getting pregnant naturally. Not that there was much chance of it before but at least there was some chance. Since last November when I was diagnosed with bilateral hydrosalpinx I've know this was the only way to move forward with IVF. I'm not going to throw all of that money and effort down the drain to end up with an ectopic pregnancy that could have been viable if I had just had my tubes taken out.

Mr. M is having trouble accepting this is the only way. I think over the last six months his optimism has increased as steadily as mine has decreased. I don't think I was being pessimistic so much as realistic. I knew my tubes had given up the ghost and had come to terms that IVF was the only solution. The surgery, the Clom.id - all just going through the motions to get me where I am today. I'm finally making progress and couldn't be more happy about it.

What was a little hard to accept is that my right tube seems to be making some kind of recovery. It's no longer enlarged and filled with fluid. I didn't expect that. Regardless, I think the damage sustained while it was hydrosalpinging (?) doesn't leave it in much shape to lead those fertilized eggs to my ready and waiting uterus. Speaking of my uterus, aside from being tilted, it's apparently paradise for embryos. I've been told by three doctors that I have beautiful lining. Good news for my future petri dish conceived babies...